So ya girl is back blogging. Yes, hello it’s me. I have risen from the dead (Kinda), and I am READY to start writing again. I have so much planned for this blog, just need to get my shit together and actually do it!
I took a step back from my blog for a while because I lost my passion for writing and also i’m working 40 hours a week and absolutely pooped most of the time. Life is fucking exhausting if you ask me, and Im slowly falling back into my depression hole again, so I thought that if I started writing again, maybe I can slowly dig my way out.
I’ve been seeing a mental health specialist and I am being referred to a trauma therapist so that’s a step forward. I just hope that they can help me control my thoughts because these past few months I haven’t been my best. I’ve just been very good at putting a fake smile on at work and then breaking down when i’m alone in my room. I couldn’t even tell you what is wrong with me… I guess I’m just not loving this repetitive, BORING lifestyle of sleeping and working all the time that I hold, but that is soon to change!
When I first started this blog, it was going to be based on travel but due to being low on funds, that hasn’t been possible for me. Hence, I have been working my butt off since coming back from university to get out of debt and become semi stable when it comes down to money. I am finally able to pay my bills without going into my overdraft so that is a positive! AND I have been able to book my ONE WAY flight to New Zealand!! I am so beyond excited and so bloody proud of myself for taking the leap and booking it because I honestly thought I was going to pussy out of going due to the fact I am going on my own!
I don’t really know where this post is going, but I just felt like writing today instead of binge watching Netflix like I have been recently (Sex Education Season 2 if you were wondering). Anyway, I’m gonna stop babbling now, but look out for more posts coming up such as ‘Applying for my New Zealand Visa and Booking my flight’ and many many more!!!
See ya x